No finish line

Okay.

I’m done with spiritual quantum coaches, intuitive healers, 2-day-long become-a-breathwork-facilitator-or-a-yoni-massage-tantrika trainings, mindset shifts that promise to manifest money and a Tesla, and claims to heal everyone and everything through a 2-hour-long online workshop.

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Don’t talk to me about taking a quantum leap or creating funnels. Don’t tell me how I will become a 6-figure coach (hey, I AM a 6-figure coach, wtf does that even mean?!). Don’t mention that some "medicine journey" or "yoni massage" will clear your traumas and your ancestors' lineage in one sitting.

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Personal and spiritual development have become the new realm for MLM (you know, pyramid scheme?), pseudo-healers, polarity gurus, and fake promises, using the same marketing tricks to sell anything and nothing, making you believe you need to change who you are, how you behave, and the way you think to be happier-richer-more successfulER.

Not even to mention the re-emergence of sexism through polarity teachings - omg, I just can't anymore.

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Are we repeating the same old capitalistic & patriarchal pattern, using spirituality as a sales pitch? Where is expertise? Experience? Safety? What about well-BEING? And at the center of all of this: what about TIME and LOVE?

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There is no guarantee in healing.

In modern Western medicine as well as in all those so-called "healing" modalities. Healing takes time.

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There is no magic pill, training, ceremony, or substance that will suddenly "change" you for the better.

You may be affected. You may be more aware. You certainly will feel something - or not. The only reason this will work is that you will actually make some concrete changes.

YOU WILL MAKE.

And what does "better" mean? What does HEALING even mean?

... Should I even dare to say - there is no healing?

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I've spent 10 years in that process of getting acquainted with myself. Learning how to be with me.

Thousands of hours and dollars spent in therapy, coaching, workshops, trainings, retreats, for my own sake and to learn how to accompany others (yes, I'm a privileged b*tch - or a workaholic, you choose).

Yes, my life has changed dramatically - within a 10-year-long process.

Yes, it will keep changing, evolving, until that body-mind of mine dies.

Yes, I've been accompanying and guiding hundreds of beings in getting to feel better being themselves. Yes, some of them would say the work we undergo together changed their life.

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That may be true.

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There is no goal, no finish line where I will say "ok I'm enlightened / I'm arrived, check," no guarantee my offering will heal you.

I'm still in the soup myself tbh, there are days where I'm feeling like sh*t and struggling with anxiety, doubting my relationship and my role as a community leader.

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Though, it feels smoother and more comfortable, most of the time. And I am making enough money so I can pay for my condo and take 2 months off/year to go to trainings (and working my ass off most of it).

But the coolest thing? I make a living out of what I love.

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You don't NEED breathwork, kambo, tantric dearmouring, meeting your King Masculine twin flame, nor another energetic shamanic intuitive shadow reading ceremony.

You may use different tools, different avenues, according to where you are, how your nervous and belief system is, and what is your annual income.

But let's not mistake the means for the outcome.

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All you need is to get to love yourself. All parts of you. Because this is who you are gonna spend your life with.

You need to take the necessary time and space to meet yourself, deeply. Accept and integrate what you are, where you are.

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And then, naturally, you will be able to move forward - carrying with you all that you are.

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Because you are, already, whole and beautiful.